Just yesterday, I wrote about surfing a higher vibe and committing to feeling GOOD in the new year. Then, enter life. My home life is tough right now. My husband is dealing with a lot of anxiety and anger related to his estranged father and a recent death on his father’s side of the family. We have a TWO YEAR OLD — ’nuff said. And we have a one year old rescue puppy who pretty much just follows us around relentlessly trying to get attention amid the regular chaos of our home. Not to mention, I’m seven months pregnant and work full-time. I know that none of this makes me special. For so many of us, this crazy, hectic, spread-thin lifestyle is the modern norm.
All that aside, I am coping so much better now with the demands of full-time working and parenting because I have made so much inner progress. I’ve let go of old hurts and cleared old emotional blocks that were draining my energy; I have opened and cleared major chakra energy blocks; I actually love myself for the first time in a verrrrry long time; I’ve reconnected with source or God or the divine or the universe (insert preferred term here); I have realized that everything is okay in the present moment; I have realized that we are all one. The list of awakenings goes on, but it still doesn’t account for the fact that life keeps happening.
It’s like, if one member of the family’s energy is down, the energy of the whole house is down. The only thing I know to do for my husband is to offer love and support (which is usually cordially refused) and then either tend to our toddler and try to redirect the family activity for the day, or retreat into my happy space (if I can) with my candles, journal, podcasts, etc. and try to recoop from the energy strain of the stressful situation at hand.
There is SO much here to be unpacked — just the facts of being a spouse and a parent call forth all of their own obstacles to manifesting a high-vibe life. I hear all of the self-help experts living the bliss of flow and manifesting through their exalted energy states, but I never hear them talk about doing this while navigating the kinds of familial bonds and domestic obligations that a HUGE number of us manage on a non-stop basis.